1995 · 密西沙加 / 北京
心語
什麼是人生?我不知道。不過我同意莎士比亞說:「人生如舞台」
我們演的角色,不但嗜盡百般味,而且亦烹調著百般味。我愛妳,我為妳製出甜味。妳不爱我,妳為我烹出苦味。妳愛他,妳為我製出酸味。他愛我,他為妳造出辣味。最後,也分不清是什麼味?
什麼是人生? 我不明白。不過,我有體會,我有感受。绝壁之上,老虎引吭長嘯,因為牠對生命亦有所感。人生奈若何? 李白有所感,所以他半醒半醉地「我歌月徘徊,我舞影零亂」。曹操有所感,所以他激昂地高呼「對酒當歌,人生幾何」。
我既不會唱歌,亦不會跳舞。我唯有寄情筆墨。
十多年電影生涯...種種矛盾、衝突,種種愛恨情仇,帶來的是百感交雜,百味交纏。我長呼一聲,披散頭髮,於宣紙上狂歌亂舞。我興奮,我把文字重新組合。我血脈沸腾,我把英文融入書法。茫茫然....我渾然忘我。迷迷糊...與天地一。我得到解脱。噫!呀!太陽嫵媚地展開笑容了。It's wonderful!
You see what I see? You feel what I feel?
Words From The Heart
What is life? I don't know. But I agree with Shakespeare that 'Life is like a stage'.
We play characters, not only experiencing the many flavours but also producing the many flavours. I love you. I produced for you the sweet taste. You do not love me. You produced for me the bitter taste. You love him. You produced for me the sour taste. He loves you. He produced for you the hot taste. Finally, I can't even differentiate what flavour?
What is life? I don't understand. But, I have my experiences. I have my feelings. In the intense moment by the cliff, the lion roars its long roar, because this is its feelings for life. So how about the life of man? Li Pak has feelings, that is why in his half soberness and half drunkenness said 'I sing and ponder under the moon, I dance wildly with my shadow.' Tsao Tsao has feelings, that is why he bellowed: 'Enjoy your wine and sing, there are not many moments like this in life.'
I don't know how to sing, and I don't know how to dance. I can only put my feelings in my Brush and ink.
Over ten years of movie life... All the dilemmas, conflicts, all the love and hate, what is brought out is the emotions mixed, and the flavours all intertwined. I let out a long sigh, I let my hair hang loose. On paper I wildly sing and wildly dance. I am excited, I put words into new combinations. My blood and pulse pump rapidly, I fuse the English letter into the calligraphy.... In the haze... I forgot about myself. In the mist... together with the sky and earth become one. I have been released. Yes! Ah! The sun lets out her smile. It's wonderful!
You see what I see? You feel what I feel?